Sold my cold knot
A heavy stone
Sold my red horse for a venture home
To vanish on the bow --
Settling slow

Fit it all, fit it in the doldrums
(Or so the story goes)
Color the era
Film it's historical

My mile could not
Pump the plumb
In my arbor 'till my ardor
Trumped every inner inertia
Lump sum

All at once
Rushing from the sub-pump
(Or so the story goes)
Balance we won't know
We will see when it gets warm

what a wonderful song to walk home to.
what a perfect song to run away to.

rachel you'll like this song (:
i miss you my love. friend with my soulmate tastebuds & discerning eardrums.

あさって　dublinに angieと　ひこうきで　いきます。　月曜日に　かえります。　さよなら！
i want to run through the irish fields.

this totally made my week.
in stef's blog's fashion.

flatmate puts hand over bowl of dried chinese mushrooms tt are soaking in water
flatmate: eh wj, your mushrooms are giving off heat leh!
wj: -.- erh maybe cause i'm soaking them in hot water?
flatmate: oh. i thought there was an exothermic reaction.

TEHEHEHEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


very overdue room pictures :p hehhh. plus cny snapshots


bookshelf that's overflowing -.-


more shit. hahaha.


overflowing wardrobe & drawers. plus alot of shoes, bags & all tt shit :p heh


table & bed.


tulips! so festive eh.


lynn!


honeydew sago which was so good so good. haha


e girls (:


hongmin darling (: i've got a hakkasan date with her tmr. whee


e boys + celine & i


celine (:


yu sheng. so messy :p hahaha. but was actually quite yummy.


norbert, yangqi, chor ming & kenny (;


photo-whoring on e way home. hahaha.


my gorgeous gorgeous star from screw (: and e pretty tulips.

fuck it. i really hate all the nonsense competitiveness in lse. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. all the secrecy, pretentiousness and hypocrisy is really getting to me.

hah. if ppl think lawyers are scheming & manipulative and what fuck shit. they haven't seen nothing yet. urghs.

i think too long a time in an environment like this, will just leave me jaded, dried up and bitter against the world. i still want to be able walk down the street, with a skip in my step and my head held up high (:

thank god for dublin and angie this weekend. traveling is escapism at its best. 3 days of happy angie time. heaven i tell you.

26 more days till mel's here! hehee.

anyone want to meet me in nyc in easter? heh

[edit] just set in e second batch of my original special recipe mixed rice into e rice cooker. omg i sneaked a few mouthfuls of e first batch. so damn good. even though its my own recipe (NOT MY MUM'S :p) it just reminds me of home ): its comfort food to the max. if i eat it all e time i'd put on weight FOR SURE cos i can eat like bowlfuls & bowlfuls of it. hahaha. i LOVE it. thank god i can cook -.- cos i think i'd be dead if i couldn't, esp with my picky tastebuds.

oh and e reason i'm cooking mixed rice at like erh 2am, is cos its meant for dinner tmr night, but i end lecture at like 7. and by e time i get home to cook it, chor ming would have fainted from hunger. snorts. so yeah, i'm cooking it now, and leaving it in e ricecooker for chor ming to press reheat (: teeheheee. so i'm coming home to a hot hearty warm chinese new year dinner tmr night :D happiness happiness [/edit]

whoosh. happy chinese new year friends (:

just came back from portpool lane. tummy's full. heart's warm. happy happy.

back to eu it is :p till tmr (; i'll put up pics then. hee

oh my mum is freaking hilarious. she sends e funniest, randomnest and yet sweetest stuff (: and the thing is i can so imagine her shaking me awake on a sunday morning and shoving all those nonsense things in my face asking me 'CUTE NOT?! CUTE RIGHT! SO PRETTY!! YOU WANT???' the whole time waving something that i can't even see properly in front of my bleary eyes. hah.


my fedex box :D


haha, my cny purple packet :D pretty right! haha. we got this from hk. seow purple pow (y)


a stuffed hanging red cow my mum sent -.- but rather adorable la.


oh and my dancing cows. there are 4 of em -.- 2 per packet. because my mum says couldn't find e big big ones like e one she sent last yr (last yr i got 2 massive mice), so to make up for size, she increase quantity -.- WIN.

god my back is KILLING me ): but all in all, it wasn't a bad day today :p fast track jap ppl are nice :D haha. and very multi-national. which is pretty fun. my last class was all chinese that we ended up conversing in mandarin half e time -.-

went for acoustic night to support ashraf (: actually totally forgot about it, then bumped into cui on my way home, and about turned and went for it. haha. ashraf & gangwei were HILARIOUS at e end. snorts. but a night of pretty good music, an annoying girl, a new friend and watching all e boys play & sing. not bad not bad.

gah. i'm supposed to be doing my reading for tmr but i'm so urghs tired.

is it a higher level of emotion, or have i grown up, or am i a different person? because now, i'm happier looking and watching from afar than actually possessing. i can't quite figure it out. there's some kind of contentness i get just from feeling that spark. i don't need a burninng flame to keep me warm, just the sparks once in awhile to make me feel alive. haha.

the air was all cool and wet, with the smell of rain. walked back home, half skipping & waltzing down the street to john mayer in my head. this is how life should be. simple pleasures from simple moments. this is why i love living where i live. the chance to take a quiet long walk home.

i must say i've never felt more alone ever than i did today.

but yet, that one question of 'are you ok' slightly soothed that pain.

sighs. drifting in and out of sleep. back to sleep.

the time of change has come, and our time is coming.

indescribable feelings. while i was never a fan of usa. and politics. but barack obama is nothing if not inspiring.

what i always admired the most about usa, is that no one ever looks down on the young. there's nothing the youth can't do there, which i totally agree. screw the age limits. screw how young ppl don't have e experience or whatever. as long as you believe, you can (:

and i believe i can. haha.

whooosh. flight & accommodation for dublin with angie - booked. eurostar & accommodation for paris with mel - booked. sent in details regarding hague/icc trip for reading week. oh the anal neurotic ocd planner in me is slightly sated. HAHA. gosh. feb is going to be ONE HELL OF A MONTH. i'm like hitting 3 countries in a month -.- 2 weekend trips. 1 longer one. i'm really really looking forward to all e trips. the first two to spend time with my darlings. and the hague one, because omg, we get to sit in one of the war crimes tribunals :DDDDD i'm super psyched. haha.

but yes the trips are leaving me extremely poor -.- so yes after cny, and all the dinners i've alr planned. i'm gonna try and cut down :p haha. instead of buying MORE food, i should just try to finish all the damn food i've managed to hoard and store at home. my pantry here is EXACTLY like my pantry back home. snorts. as my friends say, war rations. hah. so yeah, try and finish those shit. chor ming just lugged home another 5kg packet of rice again -.- haha. so yeah, if anything happens, my house will definitely still be well-fed.

and then if i can confirm my nyc trip. i will be all done with my trips for this term (: teehee. and then once exam timetable's out. its planning for my summer hols (((: WHEEEEEEE! exciting :D


dublin. oh how i love irish boys (;


too bad i can't try such hash when i'm in amsterdam -.- don't want to be erh high during e tribunal and all. hah.


and back to my favourite whimsical idyllic city (:

upcoming movies i want to watch

- he's just not that into you
- all about steve
- the proposal
- the ugly truth
- new in town

all romantic comedies. hahaha. just cos i haven't watched any in years. and a girl needs some idealistic romanticised loving :p

a few overdue pictures :p


german christmas market in notts (:


angie & po yew (act cool only. hahaha)


angie's crazy housemates -.-


angie baby!


john! before he got drunk


TEEHEEHEE! i like this photo :p


angieeeeee.


xmas present from cui! kawaii desu!


cuppies (:


angie likes this picture. haha.


mel darling (: OOOOH one more month till she's here :D EEKS! i can't wait. and up to paris we go!


i miss yet alr ):


what an adorable little boy. sighs. i want i want. uncle gideon's son.


bo lo bao. with charsiew. omg so bloody good.


mummy (: i like this photo. haha.


yanyan & cheong hin (: second cousins


kaylene darling in hk!


daddy & i at e peninsula hotel


tea at the peninsula hotel

the view of hongkong island harbour from e hotel room

mummy!

the suspension bridge one way to e airport. when my dad was talking about it, it was like deja vu
with cass in hk last time. hahaha.


kat & minghao on oxford st.


liverpool street (: my new fav haunt. grins.


chor ming getting his groove on in rough trade. hahaha


and my new phone and toy :D octopus! haha. cute cute cute?

oooooooh :D :D :D so many bands coming. i happy happy. snow patrol, oasis, all american rejects, THE FRAY (i was so sad i missed them last time), alkaline trio & jason mraz. teehee :D anyone interested in going? joyce, cui or shib???

liverpool street today was awesome. got two pairs of plimsolls for like 13 quid each. and a gorgeous photograph, and new cds. rough trade is fantastic. the music scene in london is :DDDD hahaha. was uber windy today. the wind is still rattling my windowpanes. anyway, its time to do some work. since i prob will sleep alot of tmr away. plus shimoni's here in london (: so meeting up for tea :D hehee.

oh i see zoo photos of hk friends. i sad ):

my dad used to say to me when i was a kid and was lazy to pose for photos.. i take pictures of you, because i love you. it got ingrained into me. and now, all i want to do, is take photographs of everyone i love. posed, candid, happy, crazy, solemn.

i take pictures of ppl's backs. as they walk down the road in front of me. i take pictures of them staring up at something they like. and it really makes me happy to collect each photo, with its own story to tell.

just that once in awhile.. i wish i didn't have to beg so hard for a posed photograph. and i also wish that someone would take one of me. to show me how they view me..

whahaha. i just found out that the lse Palestine society has erh taken over one of the main lecture theatres in lse. in protest of the Palestine-Israel conflict. while i am sympathetic towards the the Palestinian ppl's plight in gaza, this is ridiculous -.- what the hell does lse has to do with it. sheesh. go protest in trafalgar square la. not the bloody old theatre.

hahaha. sometimes i look at my school, and all i want to do is laugh.

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然 聽到你的消息

想念如果會有聲音
不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己
只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你
你會在哪裡
過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛

this song came out at a time that was way too apt. i think this is e song that best represents everything now. thinking about that one year. there were so many happy simple moments. everything was with a fresh enthusiasm. a shy awkwardness i found so endearing. and yet looking back on it now. i can see how fragile it was. so fragile. we didn't know it consciously, but subconsciously we always skirted around anything that would possibly shatter our world. until i smashed it all. i gave up. it felt like it was going nowhere. and yet i was the one comforted. i was the one heartbroken. maybe it was the same on the other side... but i wouldn't know would i. how many words have passed since then. i really think i can count. and it hurts, fuck it hurts. and i wish for so many things.. wished that i had never picked up the call that night. wished i had not gone out drinking. but all the wishing in the world seems ineffective in front of the vast distance that now lies between us.

so all i can do now. is speak of you with a bittersweet tone. think you sometimes. when i see stuffed monkeys or beaches. hear how your life's going through mutual friends. and wish you the best.

: 五月天 :: 突然好想你 :

i'm feeling really sian. damnit. angie needs to finish her exams FASTER FASTER FASTER. then a) we can go dublin, b) i can go visit her, c) she can come visit me.

why doesn't lse have ppl like angie's housemates ))): the instant connection kinda friends. sighs. i'm just super -.- recently.

its a kind of unsatisfaction that really kinda bugs me to no end really.

damnit. i need to get out of this funk -.-

arghs. i''m bloody annoyed. i wish there was someone who would go with me to man u next tues to watch the carling cup match against man u. pouts. or who would be willing to pay to watch a weekend premier league game with me. sighssss.

aeh i just realised minghao is here :p HAHAHA. maybe i could drag him there. grins. visitors are always so much more fun.

nyc's out for reading week. kaylene can't go now ): and angela's not that keen. we're thinking of going somewhere sunny instead. hehh. malaga, majorca, malta or algarve? heh. then mel's coming up the next week after reading week :D :D :D and we're heading up to paris for e weekend. haha.

time is just racing past me too quickly, like escalators with handrails that move way faster than the steps themselves. and like those annoying like shit handrails. while you can grasp it.. you can't quite slow it down. and if you try grasping too hard, you'll only get dragged along.

one and a half years till graduation. till my global friends split up to all the different corners of the world. god its too fast. TOO FAST! i'm turning 21 this year 0_o i really don't want to have all that responsibility as of yet. i remember the times in secondary sch & jc, wishing time would move faster. we'd all grow up faster. and now, barely a few years later, i'm dreading the passage of time.

i wish we could all live frozen in time.. like the portraits on hogwarts walls ): sighs.

sometimes it feels as though you think you've outgrown it all. and its abit hurtful. i won't cling on. i promised. but that won't stop me from trying. and i hope everyone won't stop trying. you'll never really understand (for words seem to fail me here), how big a part of my life you were, and still are.

nyc's out for me for feb ))): but i think i'm going in easter. -crosses fingers-

oh how i hate the empty void i am left with everytime a tv or anime series ends, or i finish with a series of books. gah. thank goodness for fan fiction. snorts.

hmms. while i admit rob pattinson is pretty good in a delicious dark brooding vampire kinda way. (still losing out to angel because of e disgusting white makeup he had on in e movie, and no one can brood like angel eh). i still think chuck bass is my king (; he would have made a much much much better edward. sighs.

anyway, i'm back in london. fuck its freezing. i'm feeling all dizzy & out of it. probably jet lag. shrugs. always feel that way. will go sleep it away (: yawns. goodnight!

hongkong was bittersweet. partly cos it can't compare to e time i went with cass, stef & rachel. which did make me feel a bit guilty.

its not the present, but the card, the words inside that matter the most to me. you remember my birthdate but can't even sign your fucking name on a card. so fuck you

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